I'm Back

its been a while since I last blogged.

I just had been really caught up with work, and the end of a rather exhausting day, I decided it might be a good time to write again. I thought I could talk about the last few months, take stock of what had gone on, and some of my recent thoughts.

several months had passed, since i left the civil service to join the private sector. probably the most tumultous time of my life. And ultimately i havent been happy. I had entered into this phase, perhaps naively, that so long as I quit the civil service, all would be well. I would be earning a lot more money, I would be challenged in my work, and everything would be fulfilling and good.

how wrong am I.

first of all, i am not happier. in fact if anything I am even more upset. the civil service isnt half as bad as i thought it was; its actually quite a friendly working environment!

secondly and more importantly, I had grossly thought wrong. my unhappiness stemmed from a much deeper source. it had to do with my relationships, my family... and the bond / civil service was just a convenient target for me to beat up. i channeled all my unhappy thoughts into this one convenient target, and eventually drove myself into a corner that i had no choice but to leave the service.

ultimately though, i had learnt much over this past year. and i am determined to change my life and pursue what i am really passionate about. I am somewhat clearer now what I am interested and passionate in.

i am going to make a big career jump this june. wish me luck my friends. a lot of things to resolve but i have made up my mind.